Hello 2016. Although I’ve had some ups and downs with your sibling, 2015, it’s time to put it behind, and move on (for good this time). I guess no matter what happens in the past, you’ve got to take it as it was, be forgiving of it, of yourself back then and yourself now, and continuously remind yourself to turn your attention to the present.
So that’s what I’m here to do. Although I took a very sudden leave of absence from this blog right in the middle of my home-stay, I’m here to start anew now. 🙂 Because it’s not worth it to give up on something just because it got lost along the way.
Just to offer a bit of a background, here are the couple of reasons why I suddenly stopped blogging without notice back then. No, it was not because something bad happened to me. No, I did not fall off the face of the Earth. Actually, it’s much more positive than that. Aside from the practical reason that trying to blog on my phone took up much too much time and was too difficult, I took a break from blogging (which ended up being much longer than expected) because I wanted to experience my time in Japan more deeply.
Probably around the time I began my unexpected hiatus, I received a long email from a dear friend of mine from back home. She reminded that although I was writing wonderful posts, to not over do it. My time in Japan is too precious to lose too much time and energy on simply recording it, rather than enjoying it. She made a very good point: ‘you don’t want to look back at your time in Japan and remember it as mostly consisting of frantic blogging, it’s not worth it.’ (not her exact words, just how they stuck to me)
That’s when I realized the dès vu – the awareness that this will become a memory (word courtesy of the Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows) – of my time in Japan. As the weeks silently passed by, I realized how quickly the present became a mere memory. I began to clutch ever so more dearly to the present while trying my best to take everything in, to experience things while I was still in Japan, while I still could. I stopped blogging, and even at a point stopped taking pictures, so I could remove any barriers between myself and my experience, hindering me from fully being present with my host family, myself, and my surroundings.
Thankfully, stopping blogging was the right decision, and it did help me have a better experience in the end. But now that I’m no longer in Japan, it’s a different story. Blogging now, almost half a year being back, would help me in recapitulating and more profoundly processing my experience in Japan. I’ll be posting more pictures of Japan, and also some posts looking in hindsight. Furthermore, I’d like to continue writing in this blog on matters also going beyond Japan, such as anything interesting that intersects my life on a day to day basis. I’ve already started writing some lengthy philosophy in some random word file, so it probably wouldn’t hurt posting some of that up on here also, not keeping it just to myself. 🙂 I’ve found that through writing I’m able to learn more profoundly, think more profoundly, and appreciate more profoundly.
Looking forward to a year of writing. 🙂
Goodbye and goodnight!